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Beyond BEV

3/2/2018

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It’s hard for me to believe that March 2018 marks the third anniversary of the publication of BEV: The Invisible Sister, which came a year after Bev’s death in February of 2015.  Just before my book release I established this website to provide me with a public entity.  Within this website is my blog, which I’ve been using primarily to report on my book signings and promotions.  It’s time for that to change - it needs to be more than that. But one of the reasons that I haven’t written in this blog is that I wasn’t sure what I wanted to say here.

BEV is a memoir centered around my intellectually disabled sister.  My main purpose in writing the book was to come to terms with how my family and I dealt with her disability.  There was so much I didn’t know about the whys and wherefores of her being sent to live at Pennhurst State School and Hospital as a child.  A cloud of guilt and fear and shame hung over me when I thought about how we had let her become invisible, a shadow who lived in some sort of limbo between two worlds.  I needed to understand how that happened and how that affected me personally.  I had never been able to move beyond looking at my sister Bev through the eyes of a frightened child.  I was a prisoner of my memories.  Writing BEV was a breath of fresh air that blew through the past and let the truth shine through.  It is said that the truth will set you free, and it does.  Once I found out the truth I could let go of the guilt and let myself love Bev as a whole person in the here and now, not in the past.​

BEV was a once in a lifetime book, and I will never write anything like it again.  But now that I have written it, I want to keep writing.  During the eight years I spent working on BEV, writing became a part of my life that I don’t want to let go.  And so, I would like to use this blog to write about writing and creativity and late blooming.  Though I will always be glad to talk about Bev and the book I wrote about her, I don’t want to do that in this space.  I want to explore what I found in the process of writing her story.  By writing that book I opened the door to my self expression.  I became fearless in expressing myself and believing in what I have to say.  Through my writing I hope to become true to myself and my own heart.  I promise that what I write here will always be true.
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